A girl just ended her relationship with me. Everybody thought this time would be different with her. I thought it would be different. She said it would be different. She was flaky before. She seemed fine this time. Then out of the blue: "I don't think this is going to work. It's not working for me." I'm numb from the shock. At least every other time I could see it coming. I got blindsided this time. And right after my friend stopped talking to me because I was with her. So, needless to say, I'm not in a very good mood. I was in love with her for the better part of 4 years. I still am. I think this is finally the point at which it doesn't matter anymore though. I don't think I can ever go back again. Half of me is really sad that I all this is over after such a long time. But my other half is glad that I don't have to deal with this anymore. As much as I wanted it to work, it never really did. Maybe I will care more when the shock wears off. Or maybe I'm just numb to this feeling, having experienced it so many times with her. Either way, I guess my life is back to the way it was before.